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After months in jail, Jonathan has been granted a provisional release due to inconsistent victim statements and insufficient forensic evidence He is travelling back to his village, back to his dependent, asthmatic mother He has his therapy workbook and exercise book in hand The assignments are meant to teach that actions can be transgressive If behavior is controlled, a person s goodness will prevail.Jonathan is uncomfortable with disorder A daily structured schedule includes work at a fish After months in jail, Jonathan has been granted a provisional release due to inconsistent victim statements and insufficient forensic evidence He is travelling back to his village, back to his dependent, asthmatic mother He has his therapy workbook and exercise book in hand The assignments are meant to teach that actions can be transgressive If behavior is controlled, a person s goodness will prevail.Jonathan is uncomfortable with disorder A daily structured schedule includes work at a fish gutting factory, walking his senior dog Milk and cooking for his mother He loves the peace and quiet of the sand dunes and nearby ponds Having always found his aquarium relaxing, he rescues an injured tench, a carp like fish, and brings it home from the pond with the intention of nursing it back to health.During Jonathan s jail stint, a waif like child named Elke has been walking and grooming Milk The child refuses to relinquish this job As an animal lover, she insists upon helping care for the tench Jonathan s coping mechanisms and fixations will now be tested He knows he should walk away, refuse Elke s help Tench by Inge Schilperoord is a disturbing, eye opening read Although the beginning of the tome captured my interest, I felt the story stagnated, proceeding to reach depths I found to be uncomfortable The content will be unsettling for many readers.Thank you Pushkin Press and Net Galley for the opportunity to read and review Tench We first meet Jonathan on the day he is being released from prison, but don t learn the reason for his being there until the story unspools, mostly in his head Jonathan is damaged, but the extent and nature of these damages is only revealed slowly as he returns to the deserted, mostly demolished housing estate where he has lived with his mother The extent of her pathologies are also revealed in telling ways, and as Jonathan attempts to set himself and the house in order, he is thwarted by the We first meet Jonathan on the day he is being released from prison, but don t learn the reason for his being there until the story unspools, mostly in his head Jonathan is damaged, but the extent and nature of these damages is only revealed slowly as he returns to the deserted, mostly demolished housing estate where he has lived with his mother The extent of her pathologies are also revealed in telling ways, and as Jonathan attempts to set himself and the house in order, he is thwarted by the appearance of a third person who threatens to derail all his efforts to change A tench is a freshwater fish, also called a doctor fish, and Jonathan s rescue of a damaged tench attempts to revive it become symbolic of his aims in rehabilitation Dark and disturbing, but very well written with a fine sense of place and atmosphere Tench is a morally complex book, an uncomfortable read, that rips away the judgments that accompany pedophilia and reveal the complicated inner life of a good man with bad tendencies.Jonathan, a convicted pedophile, is released from prison based on a technicality Determined to be a better person, he is committed to religiously following the exercises in his workbook that are designed to enforce his resolve He adapts a strict regimen of walking the dog and caring for his mother, but temptation Tench is a morally complex book, an uncomfortable read, that rips away the judgments that accompany pedophilia and reveal the complicated inner life of a good man with bad tendencies.Jonathan, a convicted pedophile, is released from prison based on a technicality Determined to be a better person, he is committed to religiously following the exercises in his workbook that are designed to enforce his resolve He adapts a strict regimen of walking the dog and caring for his mother, but temptation rears its ugly head in the person of Elke, a little girl next door.Elke is as unmoored as Jonathan, living in a confused world where her father who may have done something bad is missing from her life Together, Jonathan and Elke nurture an ailing fish a tench a once strong doctor fish that has sunk into the depths and is now wasting away A metaphor for Jonathan s own subliminal desires, the tench becomes the third major character in this unsettling book.As long as the fish is healthy Jonathan is able to control his dark desires But what will happen when the fish decays The eventual denouement is unexpected and beautifully realizedand the question that permeates the book is this are abusers evil monsters or struggling outcasts who need help What happens when the need to love and protect becomes perverted Sometimes, the metaphor can be too obvious, but for the most part, this is a daring book that will not let readers turn away Oh, dear heavens I ve made it to page 132 of this 187 page novel but I just cannot continue It s not that this is badly written with undeveloped characters Quite the opposite, in fact But I guess I m not emotionally mature or secure enough to handle the subject matter The dread settling in on me about what is going to happen in the next 50 pages has me running for a silly romantic comedy to read instead.Written by a Dutch criminal psychologist, this is the tale of a 30 something pedophile r Oh, dear heavens I ve made it to page 132 of this 187 page novel but I just cannot continue It s not that this is badly written with undeveloped characters Quite the opposite, in fact But I guess I m not emotionally mature or secure enough to handle the subject matter The dread settling in on me about what is going to happen in the next 50 pages has me running for a silly romantic comedy to read instead.Written by a Dutch criminal psychologist, this is the tale of a 30 something pedophile released from prison on a technicality and intent on not giving in to his dark desires again In prison he had had weekly sessions with the prison psychologist and did daily assignments in a workbook All this designed to change his behavior and prevent a relapse.Now free, he moves back in with his depressing mother in a depressing home in a depressing neighborhood, walks his dog along the beach, and brings an ailing tench fish he found back to his aquarium at home to care for and bring back to health He also does the exercises in his workbook to help him overcome his unnatural urges Somewhat heavy handed symbolism of sick fish and sick mind The young girl who lives next door walked his dog while he was in prison and now wants to be his friend and help him care for the fish He is trying very hard to keep himself in check, but I cannot handle anyof this story It will not end well.I imagine this has been written to help us non pedophiles get into the mind of one and try to understand So, yes, we are all god s children, but I am terribly depressed by the fact that a god would allow for a mind to become this messed up and capable of damaging innocent children.I am to blame for choosing this story that I cannot finish I had just read and enjoyed another Pushkin Press book offered onVine and grabbed this one without reading carefully about its content Note I read the English version of this book available onat , but don t see it listed here on GR.On the product page, descriptions of this book include brilliant, necessary, beautiful, mesmerizing.They forgot oneHorrifying.I m not sure what the author s intention was here I think the author wanted to explore the complexity inherent in pedophilia She puts you in the mind of a man who is most definitely a pedophile and who is trying to fig Note I read the English version of this book available onat , but don t see it listed here on GR.On the product page, descriptions of this book include brilliant, necessary, beautiful, mesmerizing.They forgot oneHorrifying.I m not sure what the author s intention was here I think the author wanted to explore the complexity inherent in pedophilia She puts you in the mind of a man who is most definitely a pedophile and who is trying to fight his urges He s a sad and lonely man and I think the author wants you to feel some slight compassion for him.I felt none.His struggle to not reoffend has absolutely nothing to do with pedophilia being wrong He just wants his old life back and doesn t want to go back to prison.Instead, the reader is tortured by his justifications for his behavior as he starts to obsess with and groom another victim The reader witnesses his erotic fantasies about a child in graphic detail as he masturbates The author, through her character, thoroughly sexualizes these children And it s sickening.I do realize that this is the character not the author and that she did an excellent job of putting herself into the mind of a monster But it was too good a job The worst part of it is the feeling that the author wants you to somehow sympathize with this character, just a little.There are other monsters in the book, if only peripherally You have the psychologist who tells our character that it s his actions that are bad not him You have the mother who knows exactly what her son is doing.and does nothing but cry, pray, and suggest bible study.The only innocents are the girls, because by the end of the book, the reader feels complicit in this.Perhaps the author meant simply to disturb If so, she was successful.But the novel isn t necessary We don t need to sympathize with the complexity of the pedophile s brain We just need to lock them up This novel is written by a Dutch criminal psychologist and I felt throughout that she was able to see clearly into the mind of a pedophile Her insight and clarity of observation make this a riveting read.Jonathon has been released from prison on a technicality The evidence against him was not sufficient for him to remain in jail He returns to the impoverished area where he resides with his mother and his dog He thinks ceaselessly about the work he s done with his psychologist while imprisone This novel is written by a Dutch criminal psychologist and I felt throughout that she was able to see clearly into the mind of a pedophile Her insight and clarity of observation make this a riveting read.Jonathon has been released from prison on a technicality The evidence against him was not sufficient for him to remain in jail He returns to the impoverished area where he resides with his mother and his dog He thinks ceaselessly about the work he s done with his psychologist while imprisoned and attempts to stay on course by doing the exercises in his workbook and using the coping strategies he was taught Though his crime is never directly states, it becomes obvious early on that Jonathon is a pedophile and did something inappropriate to a girl who lived in his neighborhood.Jonathon loves to fish and there is a place near his apartment where he goes to seek solace and peace He has an aquarium in his room and wants to find the perfect fish for it He ends up capturing an injured tench, scientific name of tinca tinca, or doctor fish The reason it had been called the doctor or physician fish was that people thought its skin and slime were medicinal and attributed healing powers to the fish Metaphorically, this fish represents Jonathon s own healing He cares for the fish and tries to heal it just as he is trying to care for and heal himself.Meanwhile, Jonathon meets a young neighbor girl who had been walking his dog while he was in jail Despite his internal alarms, he likes to spend time with her and keeps telling himself it s a test, one that he s passing because he is not harming her She is very interested in the fish and together they spend a lot of time feeding it, weighing it and assessing its health The fate of the tench becomes closely linked to Jonathon s own health and well being.Despite his attempts to structure his time, do his workbook assignments, and stay hopeful, he ends up spendingandtime with the girl He realizes he is becoming obsessed with her and wonders if he has the strength to be a different and better person.The novel is beautifully written and the nuances and subtleties of Jonathon s internal conflicts are well rendered The metaphor of the tench s life paralleling Jonathon s had me very intrigued I think that the translation can be improved upon in some ways but this is just a minor issue Tench occupied a curious space in my brain while I was reading it, a space that makes it extremely difficult to review I accepted it from Pushkin Press s superb publicist Tabitha Pelly, who has form for sending me things that are both very worthwhile and challenging to sum up The problem, or one of the problems, is a common one when someone asks you what you are reading, the follow up question is usually What s it about In the case of Tench, the answer is A paedophile , which, understanda Tench occupied a curious space in my brain while I was reading it, a space that makes it extremely difficult to review I accepted it from Pushkin Press s superb publicist Tabitha Pelly, who has form for sending me things that are both very worthwhile and challenging to sum up The problem, or one of the problems, is a common one when someone asks you what you are reading, the follow up question is usually What s it about In the case of Tench, the answer is A paedophile , which, understandably, tends to dampen any further conversation And the experience of reading it is not unlike that exchange it is a very brave, very sad book about a lonely and conflicted man with fatally weak support networks, and as such, it is not the sort of thing that one enjoys reading On the other hand, Schilperoord s grasp of emotional beats in the soul of someone trying hard to be good and do the right thing is superb, and moving This book will cut you That s a recommendation, I promise.Inge Schilperoord is a Dutch criminal psychologist, and her experience with men like her protagonist, Jonathan, goes a long way towards explaining why he is such a convincing character As the book opens, he is being released from prison Something happened to put him there something involving the neighbour s daughter Betsy, who seems to suffer from a developmental disability but the evidence to keep him there is apparently insufficient, and so he is let go There isn t much for him to return to his mother is a well meaning provincial naif who suffers from asthma and needs Jonathan s care and attention almost every hour of the day In a way, this suits Jonathan just fine He creates a strict daily schedule for himself built around his shift at the fish gutting factory, his daily walks with the elderly family dog, Milk, and keeping house for his mother Built into the schedule are exercises from his workbook, designed to help him control his own thoughts and actions.His days are so regimented that we know from the beginning, with sinking hearts, it can t last Just after moving in, Jonathan meets Elke, a prepubescent girl who lives next door with her single mother Elke is often left alone in her house, and while Jonathan s been in prison, she s been walking Milk for his mother When they meet, disaster is inevitable.Partly, Tench is an indictment of silence Jonathan has no one to help him in his efforts to steer clear of Elke because he doesn t tell his mother anything He s not even sure that she knows precisely why he went to prison she didn t come to his trial and he has asked his lawyer not to talk to her about the case For her own part, his mother never tries to find out there s something in her son that she doesn t understand, and though she loves him, she fears that part of himthan she can admit So she tries to banish Elke from their house, but she doesn t ask him anything outright, doesn t discuss prison or the past with him, and is therefore unable to help him change his future It s an understandable attitude, but a useless one pretend it s not happening and everything will be all right That s fine, son, she says often, of his coffee making or his omelette flipping These little finenesses can t make up for the huge not okay ness of most of Jonathan s life, but she tries to make it seem as if they can.Schilperoord marshals the symbolism of the natural world to emphasise Jonathan s constant discomfort the story is set in a freak heat wave, and the tench of the title is a fish thought by medieval peasants to have healing properties which Jonathan tries to keep alive in his bedroom aquarium It becomes the focus of his interactions with Elke, who loves animals and seems to be just as lonely as Jonathan himself, though where she is desperate for his company, he is terrified of hers Slowly, as the care of the fish becomes their mutual concern, Jonathan s flimsily constructed self discipline begins to erode first he promises himself he won t allow the girl within a few dozen metres of him, then within five, then within two He is constantly trying to maintain boundaries, but also constantly self justifying.And all the while, the relentless hot weather humid, oppressive, and omnipresent It s a perfect metaphor for Jonathan s own thoughts His exercises tell him that these can be unlearned and rebuilt in aacceptable image, but although he tries, it s difficult to do the hard work on your own, without an external force holding you accountable Schilperoord makes very sure that we see that that we witness him trying, that we witness him backsliding not because he s an evil kiddie fiddler but because he s human, in the same way that an alcoholic might try hard not to drink but end up reaching for a beer because, dammit, they ve had a bad day.Throughout the book, the climactic catastrophe looms Something is bound to happen, but it s hard to imagine how Schilperoord will engineer it without boxing herself in either Jonathan gives in to his impulses, in which case the novel holds out no hope for individual goodness or effort at all, or he doesn t, which, given the amount of time Tench spends destabilising Jonathan s resolve, seems dramatically unsatisfying The third option the one Schilperoord finally takes avoids these problems, but is tripped up by its sheer unlikeliness But that, I think, is the danger inherent in writing a story with such high stakes on one side or the other, melodrama lurks, and the fact that Schilperoord avoids it for as long as she does is impressive.What this book most reminded me of was Ian Parkinson s The Beginning of the End, which I reviewed about two years ago Parkinson too writes from the perspective of an anti hero whose lack of sympathetic qualities are due not to a Byronic, rebellious nature but to being repellent and heartbreakingly lonely But Parkinson s book does not hold out hope, and while Schilperoord s book doesn t really either, it feels by the end as though we ve moved beyond hope Jonathan has done nothing, but he will probably be punished In a way, he ll be safer back in prison where at least a support system of psychologists and social workers exists than out in the wide, terrifying world of flat shores and unpredictable children It is also worth reading Alexandra Marzano Lesnevich s book The Fact of a Body in conjunction with Tench Both give windows onto the almost insurmountable difficulties of living with paedophilia in a society where you arelikely to be reviled or ignored than offered help, and onto the painful struggle not to hurt anyone when, to you, it doesn t even feel like hurt Many thanks to Tabitha Pelly of Pushkin Press for the reading copy Tench was published in the UK on 27 April 2017 This review was first published on my blog, Elle Thinks, here We first meet Jonathan on the day he is being released from prison, but don t learn the reason for his being there until the story unspools, mostly in his head Jonathan is damaged, but the extent and nature of these damages is only revealed slowly as he returns to the deserted, mostly demolished housing estate where he has lived with his mother The extent of her pathologies are also revealed in telling ways, and as Jonathan attempts to set himself and the house in order, he is thwarted by the We first meet Jonathan on the day he is being released from prison, but don t learn the reason for his being there until the story unspools, mostly in his head Jonathan is damaged, but the extent and nature of these damages is only revealed slowly as he returns to the deserted, mostly demolished housing estate where he has lived with his mother The extent of her pathologies are also revealed in telling ways, and as Jonathan attempts to set himself and the house in order, he is thwarted by the appearance of a third person who threatens to derail all his efforts to change A tench is a freshwater fish, also called a doctor fish, and Jonathan s rescue of a damaged tench attempts to revive it become symbolic of his aims in rehabilitation Dark and disturbing, but very well written with a fine sense of place and atmosphere.Thanks to netgalley for providing an advance copy of this book in exchange for an honest review (Read E-pub) õ Tench å Dark and shocking psychological suspense about a man at war with himself This is a skillful and assured debut about a deeply unsettling subjectJonathan has returned from prison to his largely deserted, run down neighborhood He has returned to his mother, to his dog, to filling the hot days with walks on the dunes and caring for the fish he keeps in an aquarium in his bedroom struggling, like him, to survive the oppressive summer heat But there is a young girl with a chipped front tooth living next door, and feelings he thought forgotten are coming back to Jonathan His growing obsession with Elke threatens to overwhelm his whole life, as well as hers, but he is determined to make the most of this second chance he has been given He is determined not to let it happen again Tench is criminal psychologist Inge Schilperoord s daring first novel unnerving, morally complicated and utterly gripping, it moves brilliantly through true darkness The Raging Ones (The Raging Ones, run down neighborhood He has returned to his mother The Aussie Next Door to his dog An Alternative Aquarium: A Robust Habitat to filling the hot days with walks on the dunes and caring for the fish he keeps in an aquarium in his bedroom struggling Nacho L�pez like him Playing the Game to survive the oppressive summer heat But there is a young girl with a chipped front tooth living next door Havoc (The Demon Gate and feelings he thought forgotten are coming back to Jonathan His growing obsession with Elke threatens to overwhelm his whole life A Social History of Indian Architecture as well as hers The Greatest Traitor but he is determined to make the most of this second chance he has been given He is determined not to let it happen again Tench is criminal psychologist Inge Schilperoord s daring first novel unnerving Martha, Jack and Shanco morally complicated and utterly gripping Paris Peasant it moves brilliantly through true darkness I am trying to think if i have ever felt so uncomfortable reading a book, certainly it is dark and quite shocking In recent years to mind comes Tampa by Alissa Nutting, but that wasmainstream When this receivesreviews I strongly suspect the majority of readers will not like it In that vein, it hassimilarities to Lolita or the Story of O It is nonetheless refreshing to discover that it was written by an expert , Schilperoord is a criminal psychologist Jonathan is new relea I am trying to think if i have ever felt so uncomfortable reading a book, certainly it is dark and quite shocking In recent years to mind comes Tampa by Alissa Nutting, but that wasmainstream When this receivesreviews I strongly suspect the majority of readers will not like it In that vein, it hassimilarities to Lolita or the Story of O It is nonetheless refreshing to discover that it was written by an expert , Schilperoord is a criminal psychologist Jonathan is new released from prison, for what we do not know initially He keeps his head down, and returns to living a quiet life with his mother and their dog He structures his days carefully, with the help of his psychologist, and completes rehabilitation worksheets regularly, as prescribed He walks the dog and works in the fish processing plant As the short novel progresses the reader discoversabout Jonathan, and his simple life is threatened Though uncomfortable, this is an eye opening read If the media review had been in too much detail I very much doubt I would have read it